Speak Memory

It's been awhile. Forgive me . Life seems to get the best of me. I've been reminscing lately. Being here, being in ministry, seems like the underside of reality. Like real life is actually on the flipside of the life we are living. I reread some journals, some prophesies, poems, & stories from the wilderness years. They still hit like lightning in my spirit. God speaks so clearly and to the heart of me, even though this is 10 - 12 years later. I have much to learn, much I still need to have spoken as I dream.

Here are some excerpts from Sinai:



"The ability to question, the ability to take a skeptical position is absolutely central to my unerstanding of myself. It is very important to experience doubt. I think faith without doubt is either just nostalgia, or a kind of addiction." ~Mary Gordon



"Do I actually believe in the death sentance that was proclaimed of me (self) at Salvation's Endowment? Am I trying to tame what needs to die?"



"The only reason judgement exists is for forgiveness. When I know what I am being forgiven of (because of judgement - the law), redemption becomes valuable."



"When God bestows His annointing oil upon you, it will not matter whether they understood your dreams or not."



"As much as music was a part of David's life, as much as he loved it, and as skillful as he was at it ~ it was NOT what he was annointed for. BUT the annointing came as a result of a heart; a heart developed in the pouring out. The release in song."



"Dreams are questionable. Vague & allusive. But should a man, who has been established in reputation as faithful & trustworthy, who dreams a dream be considered quetionable as well? Only a Dreamer recognizes a Dreamer's value and a dream's worth."

"I am a history writer. There is history yet to be written."

"Am I in to win, or just to play?"

"The stronger I feel about something, the more it is loved, the more time, honor and devotion is dedicated to it. We become like what we focus on; where our delight is directed."

I know. It's all simple. It is just hitting me again. I'm so glad He speaks life - it makes it that much easier to die.